Fall....

Its fall....October conference has come and gone, the weather is much cooler, spud harvest is on the downward end, and I still haven't washed my windows or cut back my trees. Will it really happen? I'm really not sure but I'm not taking any bets. What will happen if I don't? My windows will look the same as they do now, (you can still see out of them) and cutting back my trees, They will continue to be overgrown into next year.


On Friday, we (Dylan, Taylor, and myself) were on our way to pick up Jared from Toddler Lab. In the middle of Dylan and Taylor's Uh-ha, Na-uh, Uh-ha, Na-uh, Uh-ha, Na-uh, I finally fairly loudly and firmly said "STOP IT"!!! Taylor in her mature manner, said "Mom, are you listening to me...? That was NOT very appropriate!" My 5 yr old teaching me about appropriate. At least I know now that she hears me.....

I'm feeling really 'bummed out' tonight. Is it because fall is here and I can't catch up with all there is to do? Dylan & Taylor already have a list for Santa Claus... Is it because I'm sleep deprived and am so tired!?! Is it because I have another headache? (I have them more than I don't) I think, mostly it is because something in life that has been going so well for a month, (so well, it was almost scary) has now crumbled in my lap over the weekend. I am upset and frustrated, hurt and angry.... How could I let myself get my hopes up, knowing better. What was I thinking!?! I had just started to let myself believe, only to be now so mad at myself. Oh well....This too shall pass....right? I guess you are supposed to get up after a fall....